Son of a B****! I Hate that I can’t Translate this Stuff

So time and time again (and I’ve shared before) I get images that pop into my head and I don’t know what to do with them. I get frustrated by this because sometimes the images that I get can be graphic and I always think to myself, “Can I stop something horrific from happening with this knowledge??” I don’t ever want to have the guilt of feeling that something may happen and I didn’t do anything about it.

On Monday, after the kids get on the bus, and I am off and running to knock out some errands. As I am exiting the neighborhood, I pass a neighbor who lives a street over. This particular neighbor suffered a heart attack a few years ago. I immediately get an image in my head of this man going into his home. He’s home alone and he suffers a heart attack! This “idea” that popped in my head was so strong, I got the feeling that I wanted to turn the car around and check on him.

Now, this is the first part that I struggle with when this happens: What if I go to this neighbor’s house and knock on the door, tell him what I just thought and then low and behold nothing comes of it?? I am labeled as officially being CRAZY! That is what will happen.

I, myself, on the way home from running errands, experience some chest pains. (Random symptoms that I experience always put me into a tizzy and at times lead to panic.) I have spent many a day and many a dollar in doctors offices, emergency rooms and urgent care centers with a slew of random symptoms that never seem to have answers.

Fast forward a few hours to later that morning. My phone starts blowing up with Facebook messages regarding a college friend whose father just passed that morning. I ask the sender of the message if this passing was expected or not. She replies with: “Heart Attack!”

Son of a B****! I hate that I can’t translate this stuff. I am sure that I need to be meditating more, grounding myself more… all of the usual. But I find it frustrating that I don’t know how to navigate with the information, signs and symbols that I am given. Talk about a head trip!

DOES ANYBODY ELSE OUT THERE STRUGGLE WITH THIS???!?

 

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Premonitions that go “Boom!” in the Night

boomLast night, I wound down by watching the 9:00pm news in bed. About 9:30pm I got an intense feeling of what felt like an explosion. It was so intense, that I tried, and did feel it, a few more times to be sure that is what I was sensing. At this time I don’t hear an actual explosion or anything. I just felt it in my body. Of course my mind wanders as to “what could this mean?” I usually jump to the “worst case scenario” like war planes dropping bombs, or terrorist situations. I eventually settle myself down and fall asleep.

The next morning I woke up to the news that a bomb squad was called into our neighboring subdivision the night before because a kid from a local sports team found a package while out running through the neighborhoods during practice that afternoon, and brought it home. The parents thought it looked suspicious, called the police, and then the Bomb Squad was called in. Homes were evacuated as a precautionary and then the package was supposedly determined to be fireworks. It was later detonated in a field around 9:45pm causing the large explosion type sound that some neighbors claimed to have heard. (I was sleeping so I did not.)

I hate when this happens to me, the premonitions or visions. I never know how serious to take them or if they have something directly to do with me or my loved ones. For example, I’d never forgive myself if I got a premonition where I could be instrumental in saving lives and I didn’t act correctly or fast enough to do so.

Supposedly, premonitions are extremely common and can be realistic or symbolic. The word “Premonition” literally means “a forewarning.” Premonitions are about feelings, or senses, of nervous anxiety and gut feelings that something is about to happen. So, overall Premonitions are more about having a sense or a feeling of things to come. Premonitions can occur during both dreams and during an awaken state, though some would argue that premonitions happen while awake and precognition happens while sleeping. (We can save that discussion for another day.)

I struggle with premonitions because I don’t know how to interpret them or the feelings, signs and symbols that I get. They can make a person feel like they are going crazy!

Journal Entry: 2.22.16

Today there was a fatal car accident on (I am omitting the street name for privacy purposes).

A few days ago I was driving down the same road, towards the river and I felt like my car kept wanting to go in the left lane and I felt like I had to concentrate extra hard to drive straight and to stay in my lane.  Nothing has happened with my vehicle since then so I don’t think that the vehicle is the issue. And we haven’t had any issues with it prior. I wonder, looking back, if Spirit was trying to show me that something was going to happen? Or maybe Spirit was getting me to concentrate while I was driving so that the same thing didn’t happen to me? (There are a ton of semi trucks that drive up and down that road and when accidents happen, they are usually involved.)

Looking into news reports, there is still no determination as to why the driver that was killed crossed out of his lane. Love and light to the individual who past, and to the family members, friends and community who are grieving this loss. – MBH

 

When Dream Messages and Situations Come Full Circle

dreamThe other day I got confirmation from a dream that I had awhile back. I have always dreamt but never really noticed before when a “dream came true” in a sense. I don’t necessarily mean a “wish upon a star” kind of dream, but more so when something is shown to you, from your Guides, for example and then it is validated later.

I got my validation, Christmas Day 2015, in fact, from another relative regarding the dream that I had. The date of my dream, I really didn’t take too much note of, but it had to have taken place in October some time.

The dream I had was about a distant cousin of mine. She has a child and though her and her husband looked happy in the early years of their marriage, through the years, it was easy to see that she and her husband were together for the sake of the child and it was just a matter of time, maybe when their child was off to college or out of the house, that the marriage would dissolve.

In the dream that I had, my “cousin” and I were sitting at my (now deceased) Grandmother’s kitchen table. The dream started out sort of like we were in the kitchen, but then the background faded away, sort of like when you are watching a play, and actors are on stage and the spotlight is focused on the people or persons doing the acting and the rest of the stage and audience is black or in the shadows. As the dream unfolded, it was she and I at this table with darkness all around us. The room almost started to spin around us, but I felt like we were in the eye of the storm, sitting still at this table.

During our conversation, she was telling me about the demise of the marriage. She was upset and crying and I recall her saying that she felt like “The rug was pulled out from underneath her” with the end of her marriage. I remember in my dream, being somewhat surprised that she was sharing this information with me as she and I are not close. Once I woke up, I remember feeling awkward, as if I knew something that I wasn’t supposed to. The dream sat with me for a few days for whatever reason, but eventually I got wrapped up with the hustle and bustle of holiday prep.

Fast forward to Christmas day. While sitting around and chatting after dinner, my distant cousin came up in conversation. A relative of mine, (who is closer to her than I am and more in the know with “family gossip”) shared that this particular cousin, who was not happy in her marriage was getting a divorce, however she felt like “the rug was ripped from under her” as her husband was the one who took the first step in dissolving the marriage. (She had always thought that she’d be driving the bus in this event when she decided that the time was right.) The idea that she wasn’t in control of the situation rocked her according to my in-the-know-relative continued to discuss with us.

To hear those words…

“The rug ripped out from under her….”

I froze in my seat, and I am sure that my eyes were wide as saucers. My mind went right back to that dream! Holy sh*t! I saw this happening or knew it happened somehow before I knew it had happened!

Taking out the elements of someone’s pain and another person’s gossip out of this story, this is one of the first messages or situations that I remember coming through in a dream that was later confirmed. I’m sure that this has probably happened to me before, however if it did, I never really noticed until now. You bet that I’ll be paying closer attention from now on!

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Update January 16, 2018: This dream still sticks with me. I still remember most of the details about the dream. Some people say that they remember certain dreams forever. I think that I am to remember this dream because it was a benchmark in my Awakening process, pretty much at a time when I didn’t even realize what the word “awakening” even meant.

Have you ever had a Premonition or Psychic Dream?

Looking back, I may have had premonitions as a child, but one of the times that I had such a dream or premonition was back in 2010, before I connected the dots on having intuitive abilities. It is unfortunate that I wasn’t able to explore the premonition deeper when I had it, though I am not sure that I would have been able to prevent the outcome.  Today I am going to share an experience with you that I haven’t shared with anybody else before. Not even with my husband or the people who were affected by the incident.

Everybody dreams, though we don’t always remember what we dream about. Also, everybody has a certain degree of psychic ability but some are more heightened than others. A premonition is a strong feeling that something is about to happen and generally that “something” is unpleasant. Premonitions can happen in dreams, also known as a psychic dream. Though we don’t always remember our dreams details in psychic dreams tend to stick with us.

At the time that this took place, it was spring, and I was pregnant with my second child. I recall that I went to lay down to get some rest while my husband took our other child on an errand. I dozed off for what didn’t seem like very long and I awoke to a loud bang. One that jolted me out of bed and made my adrenaline start rushing. I associated the sound to an engine backfiring, but it seemed more loud and intense than that. Right before I woke, I recalled seeing a circle in my “dream” right before I heard the sound. I didn’t think much of it until a few days later.

A few days later, my brother-in-law lost a very good friend of his to suicide and unfortunately his friend’s method of suicide was a gun. I later put two and two together that the loud noise that had woke me was that of a gun going off. The “round” image that I saw was that of looking at the barrel of a gun at point blank. At the time, being so “green” and not even realizing that I had psychic abilities, I didn’t know how to interpret the information or what to do with it. Though I had the premonition, I didn’t know who it was for.

Have you ever had a Premonition or Psychic Dream?