Drained, Tired, Mentally and Emotionally Exhausted – Seasonal Depression or Hibernation Season?

hibernationIt is January and the holidays are behind us. This time of year, I find myself to be particularly drained, tired, and both mentally and physically exhausted. More and more people I talk to, tell me that they also feel the same. I don’t know how long this has been going on, but over the past few years I have noticed the cycle that my body follows right after the holiday season.

This time of year, I notice that I am more than “sleepy” through my day, but more like fatigued – chronic fatigued.  I find that I crave different foods and at times no food at all.  I have little to no interest being social this time of year. I also feel moody and seem to be in fog more often than not – the other day I left the store forgetting some of my groceries in the cart. Some may say that these symptoms mirror Seasonal Depression or Seasonal Affective Disorder.

Part of all of these symptoms I blame on the down side of the holidays. And by holidays, I mean Halloween through New Year’s. I personally feel like October through January 1st is a rat-race, no matter how I try to plan, be organized or pull back on obligations. There is the shopping, the preparations, the decorating, and if you have children like I do, there are the classroom parties, holiday programs, recitals, etc. Never mind the financial or emotional stress that the holidays can put on some people.

This time of year is the opposite of all of that. For every up, there is a down.

I know many people who take traditional antidepressants, or use light therapy to get them through this time of year. And many who I know who use these methods claim that they work well for them. However I have ALSO learned over the years from some of my homeopathic doctors and mentors that just like plants and animals, our bodies go through a natural hibernation cycle. Hibernation doesn’t necessarily mean “sleep” though our bodies need rest, but hibernation is a time when energy needs to be conserved because the body’s functions (and even cells) tend to be slowed down.

0537997451252ba92be6f02732fbc85fThis is the time of year that we ARE supposed to rest and go dormant so that we can reboot in the spring. (It is sort of ironic that people use this time of year to make resolutions and end up working themselves to death at their local gym, boot camps and exercise classes, isn’t it?) During this time of year I do pay extra attention to making sure that I am taking whatever vitamins or supplements that have been prescribed for me through my homeopathic doctor. I do find that I pay better attention to what I am eating, part of that may be the fact that I have more time to plan meals with a slower schedule. I also utilize my acupuncturist to help me through this challenging season.  I have given in to the fact that I should be catching up on all of the things I put off during the holiday season and I have given in to the idea that this is a great time of year to curl up and spend time with the books that I have been meaning to read, catching up on my Netflix and just plain resting and getting a nap in when I can,  or jump into bed early when my schedule allows. It isn’t seasonal depression – it is hibernation season!! My body needs to rest and renew!

 

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I Don’t Look Like Your Stereotypical Love-and-Light, Patchouli, Intuitive Medium, and I was Disregarded for it

I recently went to an event that took place about a half hour from where I live that promoted itself as a one-stop location for holistic, health, and wellness. Communication about the event advertised its vendors specializing in such things as: Body and Energy Work, Tarot Readers, Mediums, and Astrologers, Henna Artists, Musicians and Local Artisans, Crystal Vendors, as well as other vendors having Holistic and Natural Products for both family and pets.

Since my “Awakening” I have not attended any metaphysical-related events. My Acupuncturist was going to be exhibiting at the event so I decided that I would go and check it out and if nothing else, I would be supporting my Acupuncturist by stopping by and saying hello to her. I also figured that I could use my Acupuncturist as an excuse to my husband as to why I was going to go and check out this “Health Fair” as I referred to it to him. (Wink! Wink!)

I wasn’t sure what to expect, but I figured what’s the worst that could happen, I get back in my car and leave?? I did let my Acupuncturist know that I was thinking of going. Her response was, “I’m curious to know thoughts on it if you do go.” (Looking back, this was a clue. A clue for me.)

The day was a bit chilly as it was early November. I dressed as I normally would. As if I was meeting a friend out to lunch. I had on a black, long-sleeved cotton shirt and on top of that I put a red, tartan plaid wrap on. I wore a pair of jeans and tall, (flat) black boots and I finished my look with black satchel handbag that I use (and beat up) almost every day. I did my hair normally and slapped on the usual makeup.  If anything I looked a little “Fall-ish” in my outfit, but I didn’t think anything of it as it is something that I would wear on many occasions when leaving the house. (See the image below for the wrap that I wore. I originally bought it from a boutique in my hometown, but it is still available online from different stores.)

plaid wrap

I got to the venue and made my way to the entrance. A man and woman arrived around the same time and both were friendly and we made small talk. I was sort of excited to see what was on the other side of the door as I had never been to this event before. Once I walked into the main area of the venue, I heard someone playing a guitar and saw a bunch of tables organized around the room with vendors at each of them. There was a variety of items on display. I made my way to a jewelry vendor. I started to look at a few things on her table. I noticed that she didn’t really make eye contact with me after her last customer walked away. I said “Hello” and she looked up and said “Hi” and then looked away.

I made my way to a few more tables. I stopped by a few crystal vendors – one acknowledged me, the other just looked at me and carried on with whatever she was doing. I then stopped at a holistic pet booth. I purchased a product there, but the vendor didn’t seem very grateful for the sale or conversation,but perked up when the next person behind me started looking at her products.

I eventually made my way to the part of the room where the psychics were giving readings and where energy workers were trying to sell their “healing packages.”  I sort of just kept wandering around the room and observed. I tried to see if I got the urge to sit for any of the readers. I did feel the pull to go to an energy worker, but once she started talking, I realized that she was trying to sell me on a package deal for a lot of money, which was in essence the same thing that my Reiki gal already does for me for the fraction of the price.

I did see my acupuncturist and stopped by her booth to say hello. She greeted me with a big hug and said that she was happy to see me. I didn’t want to take up too much of her time as she had a bunch of attendees in her space trying an acupuncture treatment and I wanted to be respectful.

I walked around some more sizing up the psychics in the room. I’ll be honest, I didn’t care for the energy that most gave off. (I suppose that I can say the same thing about many of the vendors who were there as well.) I did come across a local intuitive life coach who I have heard of and follow on social media. I decided to sit for a reading with him. The reading went well and had some good information in it, so not all was lost that afternoon. After the reading I stopped by my Acupuncturist’s booth again and told her that I was going to head out. We said that we’d see each other at my next appointment.

On my way home I processed what I saw, “felt” and observed at the event. I was a bit surprised that my hair wasn’t blown back. (I like to use that phrase. I got it from a good friend of mine.) I was a bit disappointed that I didn’t meet someone there who may help me on my “journey” shall we say. I was but yet I really wasn’t surprised that though I was in a setting with self-proclaimed “spiritual,” and “love and light” sort of people, it wasn’t further from the truth. I have always known but proved to myself after being at this event that I don’t fit the ideal look or mold of a light worker, intuitive medium, whatever you want to call me.  However, I don’t fit in in most places that I go, so why should this be any different?

The best spiritual teachers, vendors, shop owners, energy workers and psychics whom I have met are accepting of all, no matter what they look like or where they come from. They have no judgement. Clearly the people at this event are not part my “tribe” as they say.