Integrity is Hard to Ignore When you are in the Midst of an Awakening

One of the shocking things for many people as they “wake up” is how “out-of-integrity” they’ve been for most of their lives. A Spiritual Awakening has to do with character growth and that can include an enhanced sense of integrity.
Integrity is in one word: “honesty.” When someone, something or someplace shows you otherwise, it is time to move on.

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I have always thought of myself as an honest person. Sure I give little “white lies” to my children as needed, and maybe I don’t always tell my husband “everything” that I bought during a shopping trip, (or really much about ALL of my psychic abilities at this point – yet) but on the whole, I am an honest person, I try to be a person of my word, and I try to my best to help people and to not to hurt them.

integrity-2Though I have read that “increased integrity” (honesty) is a “symptom” of the Spiritual Awakening process, I am not sure if me noticing my integrity and the integrity (or lack thereof) of those around me is part of my awakening process alone, or if it has something to do with the way that the world itself is “waking up” and taking notice of wrongdoings. I am referring to the lack of integrity that we are taking notice of in places like the entertainment world, the political world, the medical field and in our educational and religious institutions. It is as though the masks are falling away and the truth and B.S. is starting to reveal itself. And for the record, I am far from a perfect person, but lately that kick-in-the-gut-when-something-isn’t-right-feeling keeps showing up for me again and again when I am around certain people, watching certain things or hearing certain information. The kick-in-the-gut-feeling tells me to leave the room, change the channel or to remove myself from the people I am associating with.

I have noticed examples of integrity, or lack thereof, popping up around me, as well as for other people I know.  I have a friend who recently witnessed the cracks in authority in her child’s school that she used to trust whole-heartedly. I have another friend who, in recent months, became heartbroken when she witnessed a lack of integrity from her childhood church which she now attends with her family. Another parent I know recently stepped down from his child’s PTO and another family I know removed their child from the sports team that he was part of – all situations had the same thing in common – a lack of integrity. Clearly I am not along, here.

In the last few months, I personally recognized the lack of integrity of a local, non-profit organization that I have belonged to for over five years. In my time with this organization I have seen a few things that have shown (a small number of) members’ true colors here and there, and I just sort of dismissed it and moved on, but recently I witnessed grown adults flat out lying and covering up facts to other adults about a negative situation that happened. Word had also gotten out that some members of the organization were difficult in working alongside another organization at a community event that was held during the holidays last year, among other negative rumblings about the organization throughout the community.  During my involvement, I have continually watched some of the organization’s so-called “leaders” stunt the growth of the organization for their own ego(s) and resistance to change – change that could happen for the better of the community that is serves.

integrity-1None of us have integrity 100% all of the time, but I find it hard to support and be a part of an organization, whether it be a school, a church, a local group,,  or even a local sports team that acts like this. And though I’ve dismissed a few things that I have seen in the organization during my time there, I haven’t seen things as ugly and toxic as I have in recent months. I don’t know if part of this has to do with my “gifts” and energy sensitivities, or if the crap is really just coming up to the surface. In the time leading up to me deciding to depart from the organization, I actually had visions (and I still get them) of me walking away from the organization and it imploding behind me. (Like literally exploding, smoke, explosions and all, as I walk away.) I’ve heard through the grapevine that meeting attendance has drastically shrunk at the organization’s monthly meetings so perhaps the vision was not far off.  I’ve had conversations with other members who have shared that they feel that it is time for them to also move on, though for some, it hasn’t been easy. What is also interesting that I am seeing is that a majority of those who are sticking around are those who are more toxic or have more toxic personalities. (“Like things” – or like energies – tend to stick together.)

I realize that it is not up to me to judge those who are still “driving the bus” of the organization.  When you know better, you do better and most of them don’t know any better.  Nor is it up to me to judge those who have decided to stick with the organization – for now. Through my transformation process I have learned that I don’t need to judge, I can just observe and take myself out of the dance. But in the meantime, I can do it with integrity.

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The stories and topics that I share are as I have observed them, as I have lived them, and as they have happened to me, along my journey. They are not intended to hurt anybody and they are told as I have experienced them. I have also done my best to protect the identity of the subjects in my writings. If you find yourself reading something and suddenly question: “Is that about me?” If that is the case it probably is to some degree because there’s absolutely some kind of lesson in there for you.
If the topics or stories on my blog or in my other writings are not relatable to you, then it is not for you, at least not at this time. We are all in different places along our journeys. What resonates with some, won’t even touch on the surface for others.

Ever Since I was a Child, I have been Scolded for Finishing Other People’s Sentences.

I don’t consider myself to be a rude person by nature and it didn’t hit me until recently as to why I have this “habit.” I am Claircognizant!

I have had, what I have been told, is a “bad habit” of interrupting and finishing other people’s sentences. I have done this as long as I can remember, since childhood, and it has followed me into adulthood. As a child I was always told to “quit interrupting” and as an adult, I get “shushed” (usually by family members and relatives) and told to “quit talking, let me (the other person) finish!”

I don’t consider myself to be a rude person by nature and it didn’t hit me until recently as to why I have this “habit.” I am Claircognizant!

Finishing Sentences Dog - ClaircognizantClaircognizance is the intuitive ability of clear knowing something that may have happened in the past, present, or future about another, but you may be unable to back up your statement with facts or how you came into that information.  Intuitive thoughts tend to “pop up” at random times or when least expected. I can attest that this happens to me when I am driving, showering or doing something un-related to the thought that comes in my head.

One of the biggest traits of Claircognizance is interrupting people. People with this gift often complete other people’s sentences. We know what another person in a conversation is going to say, so we respond before the person can even get a full sentence out. I am so guilty of this and apologize for this all of the time. Along with this, I get instant ideas that pop in my head and I excitedly feel that I need to share them so again, the interrupting of conversation happens.

People that have natural Claircognitive abilities tend to be logical, organized and think things out. I would say that I am a “thinker.” I analyze, not numbers necessarily, but situations and scenarios. I have an over-active mind.

I also tend to be the “answer person” for people around me. People come to me with personal issues, work issues, even logistical issues and I seem to be the problem solver. People with Claircognitive abilities tend to solve issues and come up with answers to problems with no knowledge of what the question will be.

People like us tend to use the words “I know…” in conversation when relating to others. In my younger years, I would have people question me, “How DO YOU know?” as if I didn’t have the knowledge or wisdom to respond in such a way.

Claircognizance also leads to an over-active mind with ideas swirling around and popping in. The mind isn’t quiet.

And lastly, if you are Claircognizant, you never want to stop learning. You are a person who enjoys reading to learn, and is always interested in expanding your knowledge.

If a person is interested in exercising their Claircognitive ability, pendulum dowsing can be used to exercise your ability. Automatic writing is also another great way to access clear knowing. I sometimes use dowsing to get a “second opinion” on the answer(s) that I am receiving. Automatic writing in its traditional sense isn’t a strength for me at this time, but I do notice that things come to me automatically when I am blogging or writing stories.

So in closing, if you are Claircognizant and have the habit of interrupting people and conversations, I say, “Keep interrupting!” It is your gift talking!

 

July 2016: I Stopped Biting my Nails and Told the Universe that I Want to Work on Missing Persons Cases.

I know, neither go with each other, but really, this is my highlight reel this month. And honestly, most things that happen in my life anymore aren’t always making sense or necessarily go together.

crime sceeneI know, neither go with each other, the nails or missing persons cases, but really, this is my highlight reel for this month. And honestly, most things that happen in my life anymore aren’t always making sense or necessarily go together.

I still struggle with what I should be doing to best serve me, my gifts, my family, etc. Earlier today, the 21st of July, I asked the Universe to put me on my right path. The path that utilizes my gifts for the purpose of good. Financial gain would also be great, but using my gifts consistently and for the purpose of good is good enough for me at this time in my life as I feel that I am just wandering around in circles. I flat out put it out there. Smack dab into the Universe. Right as I was getting ready in front of the mirror this morning, I asked that I somehow help with Missing Persons Cases. Something that has interested me for years, even before realizing about the gifts that I possess.

As far as my nails go, I’ve been a nail-biter for most of life and even when I do grow out my nails, they are weak and don’t grow very long. I decided that I am going to get manicures on a regular basis and see what I can do in the nail department. Even if my nails don’t grow, sitting in the nail tech’s chair makes me at least sit still. Something that I constantly struggle with – sitting and just being.

Fast forward to this afternoon. I was scrolling though Facebook and stumbled on a Missing Persons Page. There are a few out there, but this one I felt drawn to. I started chatting with the administrator of the page and told her how this is of interest to me but that I am still ironing out how to use my gifts. She offered to let me help her with a case that she is currently working on. The “case” involves a girl who went missing while vacationing in Portugal. I guess we’ll see where this goes. Wish me luck.


 

Update July 2018: I will say that moving forward, I would prefer to work with law enforcement on missing persons cases, (or any cases for that matter). I prefer this as in the past I have provided information to friends and loved ones who are looking for answers in cases and the information never seems to get to the right people to actually help solve things and to bring closure. It is almost like providing a false hope. Up to this point in assisting with cases, I have always used at least one, and sometimes two other mediums, who I trust locally to confirm the information that I have gotten in relation to cases before passing that info along. I have also learned, and will stand by the fact, that Mediums are to just provide the information that they get and it is not our job to “fill in” the missing pieces in order to help solve a crime. Chalk it up to “Lessons Learned.”

When the Person Who Got Your Job Eliminated, Unexpectedly Loses a Child Who Needs to Cross Over

When we have to forget how somebody wronged us, and we need to do the right thing. The thing that lines up with our purpose.

Today I was cleaning my office and I came across a sympathy card that I purchased but never filled out or sent. It was from last summer. Last June to be exact. It was for a woman who I used to work with who lost her child unexpectedly.

More and more as my gifts develop, I find myself intending to send sympathy cards but at the end of the day, I don’t always send anymore. (Unless I feel a real tug to share a message from the other side with someone who is grieving. That has happened, but I write the card as if it is from me, not the person who has passed.) I feel that by me sending love and light to the situation, the healing from that is greater than a card that may get lost in the shuffle of transition.

Let’s back up a few years. I was hired on at a non-profit company in a marketing/communications role. The person who lined up the interviews, the one who I thought that I clicked with, who I actually became good “office friends” with, was ready to take her Maternity Leave. She was in a hurry to get the position filled and due to the urgency, I was the one the job was offered to. I don’t know if I was the right one for the job, but I was the lucky winner.

The climate at this “company” was interesting. Really, exhausting at times trying to keep up with the political non-sense that happened behind the scenes and the constant scheming done by others. Looking back, I think that a lot of the exhaustion came from being zapped by such a vast cast of characters as an Empath. (At the time, I was clueless about my gifts.) Additionally, I remember finding myself shutting down a lot when my antenna would go up around unauthentic people. I also recall seeing employees mouths move about what they were doing, needed done, etc., but remember thinking what I was hearing and thinking did not matching up. I remember at times just trying to keep my head down and do my job. The individual who hired me, always seemed like a beacon of light in the craziness. She was one to vent to and would give insight that usually made everything better and kept me on track. That was, until a few years later when I became pregnant and took the standard Maternity Leave that most do. Right before I was out on leave, the company acquired a new President (out with the old and in with the new) and an organizational reorg was in the works. Right before leaving, the climate changed… every man (and woman) for him or herself!

While on leave, I got a call from our team admin that my departmental boss, was one of those who got canned in the re-org. Deep inside I knew that my job would be on the line now that my “protector” was gone. And part of me wanted to get canned to be home with my new baby, partly because I knew that would be easier than convincing my husband that I shouldn’t work.

Two weeks and two minutes after returning to work after Maternity Leave, I got a meeting request to meet in an out-of-the-way meeting room, with HR and the new President. Need I say more, I got my walking papers. Later I figured out that my “office friend” who hired me, jockeyed to save her job while she threw me under the bus, along with a few others. When this happened, I was hurt by her. Now looking back, I thank her as it was a blessing in disguise to be out of that place. Needless to say how things ended, I haven’t stayed in contact with her. We are not connected on social media. She equally has not reached out to me.

Then last June, it was brought to my attention, that a little girl passed away unexpectedly a few suburbs away. I won’t go into details for anonymity reasons, but this story was on local news stations and traveling through Facebook feeds and it honestly took me a few days to “hear” the story, and to connect the dots of who the child was and how I was connected to her. I was in shock and disbelief of her passing and sad for the family and those around them. My heart literally ached. As much as I wanted to reach out to the mother, I didn’t. I figured it wouldn’t matter if she heard from me or not. Eventually I purchased a Sympathy card to send, however that never got sent.

After I digested what happened for a few days, I felt like I started seeing a little girl around me. Of course new in the development of my gifts, I questioned myself that maybe I was just “making this up.” We’d have some short conversations, (none of which discussed how she passed). Usually in my bedroom or while I was in my bathroom off my bedroom getting ready – I seem to get more conversations and ear buzzing in those two rooms. (In fact, I once had a reading and it was brought up that the gal who was reading me saw me laying in my bed with a number of spirits/guides around me.)

The final conversation that I remember having with her was while I was brushing my teeth before bed. I told her that she needed to go visit her mom, her dad and her brother in their dreams that night and tell them that she loves them and to tell them good bye.  (I remember thinking that they needed the “good bye dream” for closure. I couldn’t explain why I felt that way, it just came into my head.) After she disappeared after that conversation, I never saw her again. I can only assume that she crossed over, though I never actually saw it happen. When this did happen, I really didn’t know how to cross people over. I can’t say that I 100% do, even now as I write this. I also don’t have any relationship with her family, so I won’t learn that way, either.

As I decide to put the card away with my other stationary, I realize that the card was irrelevant compared to the prayers and love that I sent, and the conversations that I had with the child. I still pray for her family from time-to-time and send love and light to her mother.

It is also interesting where these gifts take me in this lifetime and how we are all inter-connected. Was the purpose of my relationship with my “work friend” tied to the future interaction that I didn’t know at the time I’d be having with her deceased daughter?

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The stories and topics that I share are as I have observed them, as I have lived them, and as they have happened to me, along my journey. They are not intended to hurt anybody and they are told as I have experienced them. I have also done my best to protect the identity of the subjects in my writings. If you find yourself reading something and suddenly question: “Is that about me?” If that is the case it probably is to some degree because there’s absolutely some kind of lesson in there for you.
If the topics or stories on my blog or in my other writings are not relatable to you, then it is not for you, at least not at this time. We are all in different places along our journeys. What resonates with some, won’t even touch on the surface for others.